Life is a balancing act, & right now, I am severely out of balance. After years of being in the fog of caring for little children (who I love dearly & wouldn't trade for the world), I finally found myself again through my art. You see I enjoy interior design & helping people live & work in beautiful spaces, but my true passion is art. I love to look at it, create it, curate it & be around people who are creating it. Its extremely interesting and fascinating to me to see what drives people to see the world the way they do & explore various themes through an artistic medium.
Lately though, I've been too busy to create.
What?! How could I have let that happen? Between end of year school parties, dance recitals, blogging, house projects and working, my art slowly started slipping to the side. I'm mad at myself for letting this happen, and my ideas are just floating around in my head making me crazy for not getting them down on canvas & paint. I think this is the struggle as a mom and a larger part of being a woman. The roles we play define us and often pull us away from being able to achieve the things we so long for. Everyone, in their own way, wants to create something, be part of something, achieve something. I'm learning as I get older each year, that it's not selfish to want these things & even strive for these aspirations.
I love being a mom, but I'm not a great mother. I'm extremely selfish and a natural introvert, which makes being around the chaos of family life challenging at times, I use my art as a way to calm myself, and I aspire for something greater because I want all my children, but particularly my girls to see me striving to build something for myself. I want them to see that EVERYONE'S hopes & dreams are important and that to be a family means that we support & encourage everyone in the family. No one person in the family should be enslaved to the family, but we should mutually lift each other up & support everyone in their goals as a cohesive unit. I strive to teach my children independence so they are properly prepared for life and know the self reliance that is so important to their future self esteem. Society expects parents (maybe both, maybe just mom or maybe just dad) to have their life revolve around their children, and I just don't buy into it. Let me caveat here that I think children are a gift, I love mine, would die for them & want to give them every chance & commitment that I possibly can. Although, to be happy, balanced & give my kids the mom they deserve, I have to cut out the busy and embrace more of the quiet artistic moments that my being craves.
My husband & I talk to each other & the kids about the importance of priorities. Making time each day to work on little tasks that help achieve goals. I think its time I take stock of my priorities. I'm embracing the mantra of "I can do a lot of things, but I can't do everything." What do you think? How do you carve out time for priorities in your life? I would love to hear from and as always - Happy Designing!